February 9, 2012

And He Walks With Me

And he walks with me, and he talks with me
And he tells me that I am his own.
And the joy we share as we tarry there
Non other has ever known.
He speaks and the sound of his voice
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing
And the melody that he gave to me
Within my heart is ringing.

Inhale… Exhale. I see my breath for 3 brief seconds as it hangs in the crisp winter air before vanishing. The clouds are high, and far away- leaving lots of blue sky, and the whole sun, brightening the fresh new inch of snow. Crunch, crunch, swish. I can hear the snow beneath my feet and the wind lazily moving through the barren trees. I feel the warmth of the sun on an unusually warm day of December in Northern Minnesota and as I take in the vast beauty of the moment through all my senses- I am struck with God’s omnipotence.

“Rejoice! For this is the day the Lord has made, I will REJOICE and be glad in it!” Psalm 118:24

He walks with me, and he talks with me...

Since moving out of the house four months ago I’ve been given the chance to encounter God in a whole new dimention. In a more relational, intimate way. I know God has been showing me this all along this past year and a half journey of getting to know God more intimately… but, God is allowing me to see his prevalent presence in my life.  Lord, I’m amazed- Lord I’m amazed by you…

He’s constantly near me, he’s constantly guiding me, he’s in every conversation, in every step, in every connection. I’ve been awed, watching God move before me, yet with me. Through the big things, and the small- he’s there. WHOA. Have you ever come to realize how close he really is- all the time? I’m beginning to see, a fraction of his nearness. His personal, his relational presence. What’s different? What’s different then before- did I not know God through my couple years at College, or before through Highschool? I knew God, I believed in him. But now,  as I allow God the room to transform me It’s different. I don’t really know how to explain my walk with God of late- because it’s yet so stunningly mysterious to me. But I can say something that’s strickingly different to me- my heart Knows him. I believe there is a difference between believing God is there, and Knowing God is there… I’ve believed in God since I was 4 years old. And I’ve known God’s presense, I’ve known his works, -but I’ve not fully experienced knowing him, with an overwhelming peace in my heart, -were my heart rests in the confident assurance of the Lord’s words and ways.  My Spirit, is at rest.

Romans 15:13 “I pray that God, the source of Hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace. Because you trust In him. Then you will overflow with the confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.”

Isaiah 30:15 “This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy one of Israel says, Only in returning to me and resting in me will you be saved. In quietness and confidence is your strength.”

I’ve been chasing the Lord and his purposes for me since Highschool, desiring to be used but feeling like I’ve fallen short time and time again. Through those years I’d wonder what God had for me. Even now, I wonder. I was Inconsistent, seeking affirmation, instead of direction. Affirmation, meaning: waiting to see God affirm my choices instead of seeking direction on how to make them before. I can see now, the difference. I can understand better why I was often so confused seeking God’s will, why his answers seemed so unclear. I was blinding myself to his leading by worrying about not seeing it. Overlooking, trying to read between the lines, not being patient enough for an answer. In Faith, I’d made leaps and sometimes I’d land and other times I’m keep falling. But God would always throw me a rope. I’ve come to appreciate the process. Through the busy days, the care-free, home-body days, and weeks that come packed with this, that and the other thing. And allowing each day to not get ahead of the next. Dear heart, rest in Him. Rest in the confidence of the Lord. Allow Him in, embrace his perfect relationship, bringing you complete fullness. So you lack nothing.

James 1:2-4  "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials,  knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing..."

September 3, 2011

Love Story

Love Story

The more i seek you,

the more i find you.
The more i find you,
the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
hear your heart beat.
This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming.

 (Kari Jobe- The More I Seek You)

I lie down and look out my window at the millions of stars. He whispers, “I made those for you. Darling, remember even in the darkest night, you will find me and I, will always be searching for you, pursuing you always.”
Psalm 19: 1-2
Luke 1:78-79

 He takes me in his arms and holds me. He speaks to my deepest fears, and reassures me, “My dearest beloved, you will never be lonely. I am with you always. There is non to fear, for I will protect you with my strength, and honor.”
Isaiah 41:10
Matthew 28:20

When I am overwhelmed by all that is happening around me, he calls me and sooths me with his love. “My peace is yours to take from. Quiet your soul love, rest in me. The burdens that weigh upon your heart are not meant to be carried by you alone, here I am. Allow me to bear them with you. Sweet girl, always, will I desire to walk with you, allow me too.” 
Matthew 11:28-30

The One who fights for my heart has shown me the new life, that comes from the great mystery of new beginnings. “Tread carefully in this blanket of forgiveness, for you are free now. What was, and has been is behind you. Go forth my love; create, grow, share, listen, speak, do, and be all that you’ve been given. May my love be all you need.”
Romans 5:14-16

 He brushes the hair from my forehead with the gentleness of a summers breeze, and his presence I feel, so closely. He speaks, slowly, softly: “Your heart, my darling. May it always bring forth the beauty planted within; mysterious, vulnerable, loving and fashioned after my own. O How beautiful is a gentle and quiet spirit, my dove.”
1 Peter 3: 4

I laugh and my heart is glad, for I am found complete with Him. My lover watches while I dance, and sing. What a song of Love! He delights along with me in this moment, his promises never fail. I turn to his Voice, I speak to his heart; and what a thrill, dear reader to speak directly to his heart. And I speak:
“ In you, I find my life. You carried me through the darkest night. You guide me through each circumstance. I find my rest in you. I am forgiven, so I may forgive others. Your love you’ve given me so I may share it with all. I am given freedom to be vulnerable. You desire me to succeed, which gives me the change to be. I cherish you more than anything. Together we; Jesus my Gentle Warrior, and I- will always be complete. You in me, and I in you forever, who am I to fear.” Amen
 Lamentations 3:22-24
1 Samuel 2:2
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